I'm going into college and I'm not happy, I know I should be but I'm not, I'm scared man, scared of everything, scared of not being able to get an internship, scared of not being good enough at art, of never being able to do what I want, I'm terrified. it's like everything is going in slow motion, time takes forever to pass and when it does I shiver, I'm just petrified by the future I want to do and be good, to officially become an adult but I'm also mortified of I dunno, a lot of things actually. I don't have a lot of reach which right now is good because not many people will see me in this pathetic state of mind I guess I just gotta do what I think is best and hope it goes well